TOO THINK TO ENJOY

Hello, everyone. This time I want to write about the reason that why I started handball.

This question is often asked by my friends. First time I played handball was at J.H.S. and I was about…14 years old. The first impression is "Fun!". And I decided that I'll join handball club at high School . But the high school I entered had women's handball team. So I gave up, and joined rowing club.Shortly after that I decided that I join a rowing club at university. 3 years later, I entered P.U.K.. But this time, P.U.K. had no rowing club. After considering I decided joining handball club. But it was bi ginning of trouble. First, there was only 1 woman player except me. Second, "handball team"meant "boy's handball team". That is to say, there was no women's handball team!! Third, because of 2 reasons, I couldn't practice handball enough. Even boy's handball was poor and the worst minor team they are!! This matter trouble me very much.



After that, I gathered 8 people(except freshman) made a team, try to make a women's handball team! And now, continue these things. It is very hard and stressful for me.

And I noticed. To Enjoy seems easy but it's difficult thing.

On December 6, I have a last game in this year. I want to win but…
I got new type influenza. So I just recovered from sickness and I can't move enough.There is no time. I feel that I always have no time.

RUN AWAY FROM REALITY

Hello.
Recently, I was absent from practicing handball two times. It's not truant. Because I got a cold.
To tell the truth, I feel that lucky. I am the worst…I know well. But while I absent practising handball, I think about handball. I ought not want to think about handball, but somewhere in my head or mind I think "I want to play handball better! I want to enjoy handball with my teammates." I can't understand my mind. I watch handball animation with YouTube, reviewing our operation and my movement in my head, and reflecting .

I don't talk about that I will rest handball after season end. Because I don't want teammates to worry and don't want to affect playing handball. Someone that I talked about that gave me nice advise. So I reconsidered.
But I don't have margin. I have part time job, homework(including this English homework) ,handball, school festival…I am bad time management.



Tomorrow is school festival. So we can't use our gym and can't practicing .



The final game of this season is December 6. Until that we have only 9 practice.



To get win seems impossible…it seems everything is impossible .

But only 9 practices, it is hard doesn't want to for me to go practicing.

But I decided that I will go practising.

I DON'T PLAY HANDBALL ANY MORE

Hi!

Recently, I got troubles about playing handball. I intention play handball hard, I concentrate well but my handball skills doesn't become well. …Why? I'm trying play handball well …

I always sad to have troubled while practicing handball. I 'm sorry for my teammates. I'm a captain and I'm a ace. I am left an important position. But I can't count , I can't flourish.

I feel disappointed, regrettable, sad, miserable, empty…I don't want to play handball now.

Playing handball is very difficult. And handball is called a"experience sport". Experience of playing handball is very important for playing handball. But my experience is a little.

Maybe this is my slump. I cry whenever after I play handball, after game. And the night after practicing I think about my play… I can't sleep.



Last Sunday I had handball games in Matsubase. The game was the worst.

I couldn't do my play, I disturbed teammates,I couldn't shoot, I couldn't attentive teammates, I couldn't …

Everything is pressure, hard for me.

I have no result. Teammates except me became better and better than me.

What can I do ??

What should I do ??

Help me…

I don't come up with nice idea and I don't want to think about handball.







I decided that if I can't play handball satisfy, I rest club long term.